am having some trouble with myself. I don't know
if I have an eating disorder or what. I will eat
sometimes (not large amounts, but not small amounts),
but I feel fat. Then there are other times that
I will not eat for a day or two and a few days
after that I will skip meals. I tend to skip alot
of meals, like at school when I am around people
or peers. What's up?
I actually don't know anyone who doesn't have
a food neurosis -- either starving, making ourselves
throw up, constantly measuring ourselves against
others and not feeling like we don't measure up.
It seems to be an unescapable cycle -- at least
one that we get stuck in for a few years of our
my experience and that of most of my peers, I
actually noticed that it seemed to dissipate by
our mid-to-late 20's -- mostly because you start
to value what makes you and your body unique and
you realize that while you might be jealous of
someone's legs, they are jealous of your arms
-- there is no perfect body, so we all begin to
realize what we are happy with and what we want
this ease doesn't come to everyone -- some people
struggle their entire lives and still never feel
good and others go beyond this more mild stage
and actually do damage to their bodies. The fact
that you are identifying it means that you are
committed to working toward it. What I found is
that whether or starved or ate, I still wasn't
happy with my body, so I should at least be healthy
and eat and before long, I realized that I was
happy with my body.
Hopefully you can find a way to measure yourself
against you and not against others, since that
is really the only accurate way to measure it.
I hope that you can continue to talk about this
and soon stop, monitor yourself and
think about what's good for you.
care and good luck,